faham tak.
i am a kind of person who really hates planning.
i am not a good planner, i hate to plan, and i wont plan.
all i do is to paste a planner on my wall for every coming 2 months and jot down all the plans that others have made or set.
exams, quizzes, presentations, holidays, meetings etc.
normal events. for me to set up a date to hangout, surprise party, shopping day, movie marathon day, vacation n what not, never.
thats me.
suka hati org nak ckp im a scattered *which ive also admitted that
unplanned person
unorganized
whatsoever.
i will at most plan what to do 2 - 3 days b4. thats why kalau kawan2 ajak hangout kat fb tu..mcm nak aku plan, sorry. i wont.
for study, i do plan. like for final cz im scattered at first place, n clumsy at the second.
and yet, u still not appreciate it, and...huh. seriously im sad. its like i am the only one who is ber-iye2 nak gather kan korang, which aku rasa xde pun benefit kat aku, nak bg korang meet up for the very last time n bermaaf2 an which also do not benefit me at all, to give u guys memories to be kept in coming 3 years, to make u all feel happy and comfortable at the same time, making sure u guys can make it for that day, and gaahhh.
suka hati korang. i will never plan any such thing anymore. sorry friends. not that i hate u guys. never. i love my friends so so much. its just my conflict i guess.
wanna tell a story from my past miserable life. last 2 years.
i got a sister, who is a perfect planner.
she's the eldest in my siblings, so no wonder.
all her plan will definitely come out well and never disappoint us.
so one school holiday, (the beginning of it) she told me the plan for the whole 2 months. this is the sequence, day by day
- uda my 2nd younger bro come back from hostel
- my mom's pre-school will having graduation day
- abg my 1st younger bro got futsal training
- sending off abg to motivational camp
- balik kampung
- after 2 days,
- nanny got an operation
- bowling
- after 1 day,
- my eldest sis's operation
- after a week, go for PD vacation
and so on. i cant recall.
.....such a perfect plan huh?
it would be nice and enjoyable if everything went well..
u know what really come out?
- uda came back
- my mom's pre-school went well
- abg got his favorite (footballing)
- sent off abg to motivational camp, but he got fever
- we all go out for dinner but abg didnt. selalunya dia yg suka sgt makan western2
- after 1 day,
- at 9 pm. we all, all, waited for abg's body from police station at hospital serdang, they saw
abg's face, pale, white, helpless.
- we didnt sleep at all. its like..dreaming. bad dream.
- im waiting outside of bilik mayat for 3 hours, bringing back my lovely abg, buy his last wish *he asked me for sabun taharah b4 pergi camp but i didnt have any* so we bought it on the way back from hosp, guna waktu mandikan jenazah, which angah tlg cucikan muka dia, solat jenazah, burial, talkin,
- i cant imagine how *well the plan is going.
- i missed him.
- the operations cancelled, postponed vacation, cancelled outings.
u know what. my sis planned everything, mcm takda apa2 yg akan halang. n itu ialah plan yg mesti come out. thats the prob. dia mcm leka dgn diri sendiri, rasa mcm takda 1 pun entiti yg boleh ruin everything..which is Allah. then...Dia tunjukkan kuasa dia. sbb apa? tak nak sebut insyaAllah..tawakkal..kalau Allah izin..and what not. this is one of the reasons..
His power. so..i lost my favourite brother, rasa mcm..mata terbukak, dia ada, blink, bukak balik, dia dah takda.
thats all. so..conclusion. improve! :) cerita ni bukan nak minta simpati.



















